Off Days Suck

Off days suck, they really do. I don't mean days off - those can be great. I mean days where everything is just...off. You feel half a step (or a full step) out of sync with everything, and feel as though you keep tripping over your day. You want a re-start, so you can wake up in step with the day to come, and not feel beat up just for existing.

I had an off day yesterday, and it was awful. The little things like random stuff breaking, falling, actually tripping, and losing things that were right in front of me, tend to build up. They build up because I'm off inside. I'm unbalanced, and so my world becomes unbalanced.

The most difficult part, for me, about having a day like this, is stopping everything, and realizing it's me that's the issue. It's easy and tempting to blame everything else, especially when there are bigger things that end up being off as a result. That doesn't actually fix anything though, because the things happening around me when I'm unbalanced are simply side effects of the real issue, and fixing them won't make me balanced.

I tend to want to fix those little issues, and when I can't (because they aren't actually the issue) it becomes taxing. So, last night, after a full day of letting myself get beat up because I was unbalanced, I finally stopped, and refocused. I prayed, cleared out all the internal muck, and actually slept decently for the first time this week.

Today I can tell things want to be off balance, because the residual energy from me yesterday is still lingering around. I'm more balanced today though, and have a completely different energy, and it's fixing things around me. While I adore being able to fix me, and have that end up as a positive result around me, I still hate off days. It takes far longer to re-balance myself after having a funky day like yesterday, than it took to get in the funk in the first place.

What are some things you do in order to get re-balanced, and fix a funky off day? I'm always curious to hear how others handle things like that, so drop a comment and let me know! Maybe I can keep the funk from returning any time soon.

Okay, Let's ReFocus, Shall We?

Hiya dudes! Happy September!!

Omg, I'm soooo thrilled it's finally September. I'm one of those weirdos who doesn't like Summer, at all. I hate being hot, I hate sweating, I burn super easily on my stupidly-sensitive uber-fair skin, and it sucks. I'll be lobster-red after 5 minutes in the sun, and if I don't freckle after I burn, it's amazing.

Seriously, blech. 

I'm a Winter girl, and Autumn is akin to Spring for me. Everything is finally cooling down, there are more clouds to protect me from the sun, and more rain which I absolutely adore. I can wear jackets and jeans again, have my hair down without passing out, and wear my super cute boots. So basically, September hits, and my mood skyrockets automatically.

This past Summer has been particularly difficult, and it's my own stupid fault. Since I was cooped up inside (hiding from the sun) with no working laptop for most of the Summer (thanks to technologies' hatred for me), and too much pain to sit at my pc for very long (thanks endo), I often had my phone to entertain me. What did I do? I joined a bunch of groups on FB. 

My logic: I'd love to connect with more people, and since this dinky little town has very few hobby groups I'm interested in, maybe I'll spend this Summer branching out more online, and try getting used to being social on social media! I mean, that's what it's for, right? Right??

Those smarter than me are either laughing, shaking their heads, or both.

Long story short, that's an epic failure of an experiment, I learned my lesson, and I'm pretty much done. Most groups are high school cliques at best, and people are shallow & irritating.

So, there we go. I'm going into September in a better mood because of the season change, and changing my mental outlook. I'm fixing my laptop, getting back to blogging and writing, and giving up a bit on being as active on "social" media.

I can't wait for the cooler weather, so I can kick my hobbies back into gear. I basically hibernate during the Summer instead of Winter, and now it's coming up on my time to be active and have fun. God's been leading me to do quite a bit lately, and I'm anxious to get started.

Is it too soon to play Christmas music? Maybe? Nah, of course not. ;)